Brain scattered far and wide

I decided to cycle up to the video shop to return some dvds this evening. I arrived there, five kilometres later and was locking up my bike when I realised I hadn’t worn my helmet. This is the second time this has happened but the previous time I hadn’t gotten nearly so far away before I realised my mistake. I also discovered upon entering the shop that I had left the second disk in one dvd set in our player, thinking I would watch a short film that was included. To fix this I was planned on telephoning the Scientist, however my phone was lacking any battery power. I am really not so great at keeping that thing charged. I went to the closest pay phone and popped my fifty cents into the machine, then dialled. When the Scientist answered, he couldn’t hear me and he eventually hung up. A second fifty cent piece was used with the same result. I ended up going across to the markets where another phone existed and had the same thing happen the first time. I was feeling a bit paranoid by this time because I think I do know how to use a pay phone. Fortunately my fourth try succeeded and the Scientist was dragged away from the depressing cricket match to return the second disk and my helmet. So much for saving fuel but the return trip was uneventful.

I think my brain became rather muddled earlier in the day when I took Game Fanatic to the gp in order to get referrals to a doctor and a psychologist for this year. Normally the referrals are done just for him but the  new doctor he’s been referred to requires that I also be on the referral for reasons unknown to me. I also had to get a referral to the psychologist in order to get support for working with both the boys. It all has to do with getting partial funding from the government health care program. For one of these, it was necessary to to do a mental health plan for me. This is where things got murky because I was being asked many questions about my mental health. I wasn’t feeling particularly anxious going in, having experienced a number of similar appointments for my kids before. But I must admit to feeling highly anxious by the time we left. Because of the way everything has to be done, it felt like my mental health was being questioned and while it’s probably not optimal, I think I am doing pretty well overall. The really weird part, though, was when the gp started talking to me about my general medical history and that felt uncomfortable for me. I see another doctor in the practice for my own medical issues and it kind of felt like he was invading that territory. Eventually it was worked out to leave the medical part to my regular doctor when I am due to see her in a few weeks for a regular visit. My brain was feeling overwhelmed by this time and it was a great relief to be finished with the appointment.

It would seem that the anxiety and brain fog that struck me during the appointment stayed with me through the afternoon and into the evening. I must have been very distracted to be so scatterbrained when I went out. Hopefully a good night’s sleep will put me back in good form and spare me any more errors in my thinking processes.